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i was told through third party resources that the office ppl dont trust us and that really hurts becuase i cant think of anything i have done to be considered untrustworthy...and i think that is the last straw i guess becuase i was becoming indecisive again about quitting and i just cant work with ppl that dont trust me to do my job correctly but wont tell me what the reasons behind it is...yea i did the stupid employee counseling thing..and all ive heard is what im doing wrong and even those were blown out of porportion..but i sat there and listened and told my side not that it mattered...and thats it..nothing else on what im doing that needs to be changed , nothing on how im working with the kids or doing or anything..its like i go to work and do my job and thats all that matters until something gets back to the office about me doing something wrong and then im the worst person alive..its like as long as im doing things right then i dont really exist i guess but as soon as i screwup the world needs to know about it and put me back in my place...its hard to believe now that all i talked about for 6 months was coming back and working here after my first summer..and now im ready to go and im not sure ill be able to come back again...it goes a bit deeper than even just wanting an apology..ive done more than my job and asked for nothing but it doesnt matter because for some reason im no longer in the good graces of the boss and i dont know why or how it happened...so we are leaving on our trip on sunday and have learned that the TA is going to be in charge of everything..the TA had never been camping before aug..the TA cant cook on the stoves or carrying any of her own gear, the TA is only supposed to be there to teach but the TA is in charge now and its like god talk about undermining what little authority we have..how can they take things like that away from the counselors ?! and from the last trip of ours im not thrilled to have her along anyway because she is like a spy for the office to just report back what we are doing and how and why...why do they need us if all the importance is being given to the TA who cant do a damn thing..but ive been doing it for over a year now..i know how to run and set up camp and cook and keep them all in line..but that doesnt matter...so if she wants to be in charge she can i dont bloody care..and to make it better..we are taking the short bus to ga..i hope it breaks down..i really do so they will stop sending them out on trips..