annoyed

im trying and trying and trying to stay calm and well slightly calm and not freak out anymore but i am just getting more and more nervous..no my check hasnt shown up..no one is in the office because ive been calling..i dont know where my check is at all and its freaking me out..and after jim left its just me and its like i can freak out as much as i want to now and im trying to keep some small sort of control..but its not going well and im just on edge..and still im freaking stuck doing is waiting..