sometimes....

sometimes i dont want to have to be strong
i dont want to be the one that manages everything
i dont want to be the one that has to fa ce the world
with or without a smile
i want to be sad
i want to be able to cry and not hide
i want to be able to ask for support and get it
i dont want to be told that im strong
that i can handle things
that im doing good
please can i just have my pity party
please can i give up
call it quits
run away
disappear

but

where would i be if i had no one at all
no one wondering, thinking, caring, concerned about me
what if no one was there to care at all
no one there to let me know that things will get better
that this is a sucky time but that it wont be forever
what if no one noticed the struggle
no one noticed the silence, the fear, the struggle
where would i be then
would i even still be alive

sometimes i dont want to be told im strong
that i can handle things
but that is what i need to hear
when i am ready to give up
and give in
call it quits and give up

no i am still here
i am strong
this wont last forever.