since im avoiding i may as well reflect..

in two days..it will technically be our two month anniversary...wow..writing it, thinking it, saying it...completely blows my mind...i feel happy thinking about it..at peace sorta...because i know now that our friendship and relationship is really strong..and that we are communicating..even if it does end up causing hurt and anger ... things can be put back right...and well that is one truth that i dont think i will ever forget...nor the fact that i was forgiven...so im going to focus on the good parts..the support, the comfort, the fun, and laughs, and kisses, and other fun things that im not so much scared of anymore...i keep thinking that valentines day is coming up and for the first time in my whole life, i have someone to spend it with...no idea what to do..but juts the fact that i have someone to spend it with is enough..and makes me smile...it calms me to know that sarah loves me as i am..as i love her.