just need to write.

i dont really know what is on my mind..but something is there..something is bothering me i think.,.maybe it is just loneliness..maybe i am just isolating to much..yesterday was a truly wasted day..i really really truly wasted..all day i had a headache and felt useless cas i couldnt focus...and i finally took something for my headache after a miss guided attempt at punishing myself ...and ended up just falling asleep incredibly early...and now im awake and trying to focus and get my work done..and all of that...i dont know..just feeling a bit down...not suicidal or like cutting...but just sad..