bad night

i dont know..yesterday evening/night was just hard..as i was feeling sad and tearful and all of that and i didnt know why..got a really bad headache too..finally just took my night meds and went to sleep..but then woke up at like 12ish and was up for a couple hours..but went back to sleep and that is when the night mares started..the usual ..being forced, hurt, made to do things..oh i dont remember the dream..i remember the sadness, the fear..and so when i woke up this morning..im just feeling a bit blahish...im tired..and feeling worn out...i dont think ive been sleeping as well thanks to the wellbutrion .. and so i took 2 of the clonezapans last night and still didnt sleep through the night.. but im writing down daily how im feeling and what not..so that ill have it when i go to see the pdoc..cas she asks whats been going on and i draw a complete blank as to what to tell her..so im hoping this will help with remembering and everything..

so yeah just a hard morning i think..and maybe once i am up and out of the house i will feel better..

but also think im feeling nervous about having my eval done today at work...very nervous about that...