Sunday, July 18, 2010

the usual

having a lot of trouble staying focused..i think thats been going on all afternoon/evening...i really am starting to feel that 'not' feeling good is becoming the norm..like expected 3 hit and i started spazzing out..and of course i was still out doing stuff..seemed like i was just going so slow and taking forever to do anything..all emotion was drained away..and it was like how i was with t the last time i saw her..blah..but finished errands at least..umm issues at the doc again..and they took my bp and there were issues with that of course..but it was around the same as it was on friday by the end..which i was ok with..it is still disappointing though..but then just made a couple stops and came home...it makes me feel pretty useless to ha ve to take a break after being out :( so frustrating... umm but umm cleaned up some i think and made dinner..and it turned out pretty good..and i took a picture of it and sent it to my sister lol..it was great..she hates me now lol...but cleaned the kitchen and now back to laying down because head is all sorts of not ok .. about to take meds though..and hopefully that will help..but nothing really helps anymore.. ok no feeling sorry for myself tonight...dont have the energy to spare really..and have to be up early tomorrow to join the real world and go to orientation..but gotta finish laundry and what not hopefully tonight before i fall asleep..and umm get stuff ready for tomorrow..and all that..
gosh i thought i had so much more to say but i guess not..prolly need to make myself get up now and do something..

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