no meds...

i thnk the meds ..or lack there of are already effecting me...it is hard..and i am angry..

i used the last of the lexapro on saturday...and the effexor will only last through to next saturday maybe...and what i have left on the trazodone im trying to keep for an emergency...im going to the pharmacy this afternoon maybe..to see how much the meds will cost without insurance..and i signed up for the card on the effexor website that said i could get my script filled for like $4. i hope they are true..im very worried though...when i missed all of the meds on friday i thought my head was going to float away..it was hard to concentrate and my head just felt so heavy and weird..it was not a good feeling ..

it is really hard to think about all of this though...tomorrow may be my last therapy appt..and that makes all of this even harder...losing meds and therapist all at once..and i really have no idea what to do or how to handle it..