speechless

im speechless right this minute...and i guess thats saying alot lol..but have you just ever gotten a comment that just floored you in its unexpectedness and honesty? and that it came from someone who knew and worked with me for a summer so its not as if it came out of the blue from some person i never met..but this is an honest to goodness real person who saw me so frustrated i didnt know what to do over the summer at the camps..and who i worked with in passing and greww to like a lot but from afar you know because im not big on making friends and everything..but she was just so carefree and my kids loved being in the art room with her ( this person was the art teacher for the summer camp) and i knew she had been in the psych hospital and had an ed..and it was just one of those if you only knew kinda things but anyway..this is the comment she left on my myspace page


You know... I always looked up to you in awe... I want to be where you are someday... in the way you act... interact with the kids... deal with life...
Just wanted to let you know!



i wrote her back and told her thanks but i keep going back and looking at the message because it surprises the heck out of me..its like that little vote of confidence ive been missing lately..i never exxpect anyone to look up to me or tell me ive done anything good or well you get the picture..and part of me is fighting hard to not take it for what it is and question why and everything but this is one of those random times when i want to nice feeling it leaves..i do..