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you know what...if i get sick or something i hope i dont die because all anyone seems to worry about is that i have no insurance..i havent had insurance for like 3 years..whats the big deal now?! i dont get it..and now im being told to look for a better job and to apply for grad school and all this stuff and its like ok can i do training at this place and see if i even like it first before i have to go and plan the rest of my future?! i dont know what i want to do..i dont know where i want to go to school or anything..and i do want to go back to school i jut dont know when or how or anything and its just hard trying to juggle everything at the same time and figuring out what im supposed to be doing to make everyone else happy..because my being happy just isnt that important..

you ever get the feeling that you just arent wanted around.