productive day

so ive been up since like 5:30 this morning because mommy asked me to get her up then because she had to go to work early..well gee i wake up and go to get her and of course she is already up..felt stupid for agreeing to do it but i was trying to be helpful..but anyway..went back to bed when she left and then got up a little bit later to take nia to work..and we went out to breakfast and that was cool..and then i ran errands for a bit and then took my car to get the oil changed and i was stuck there for 2 and a half hours!! walmart is only so interesting and then i was just bored and sleepy! but finally it was done and i went over to dees house to get a ps2 game and then i went to the beach to get the console and now i have the ps2 lol :)..and ive decided i want to get guitar hero or rock band after i save up some!! and i got a new webkinz :) and its a husky that ive been looking for forever! and i named her maya and now i have 11 of them lol..can we say obssessed?! but pretty much just wasting time online for now..asked yvonne about coming down some weekend and we could hang out at the beach house after i ask dee of course but i dont see why she wouldnt let me borrow the beach house..and ill just make sure to ask well in advance so she will know i cant babysit..but otherwise today has been a pretty ok day..still kinda down about everything but still trying to be ok and everything..

as i was wondering around walmart after about 2 hours and i was going insane i decided it would be a good idea to get a scrapbook and use it to keep my collages..that way i can have them in one place and not stick them all over the place..and then of course i couldnt find a scrapbook lol.so ill have to keep looking for one..and someone was telling me about this art thing called an altered board book..and its like making collages and other art type stuff but its done in book form..and its like you literally get a book and then paint over it and decorate it anyway you want to and you can do anything to it! i really really want to try it but i need to find a board book..and i saw some in walmart but those were the newer story ones and i dont want to pay 6 bucks to destory and redo a book...so im looking around for some..was talking about art therapy on a board and how it benefits and stuff and i remember i actually liked art therapy..and would go back if i could..and then that brought up going to school for art therapy lol..but it would be like going back and starting over because of all the art classes i would need..so lets work on one degree at a time here! and i have decided i want to go back to school and get my masters before moving big time...but im not shooting for this fall .im planning for next fall..it just to rushed right now and im not wanting to do it so it would be a waste to force myself now and just go and fail..and then in a year and a half in the program im done with school!! just gotta make it to then! gotta save and study for stupid entrance exams and all this stuff..wonder who ill ask for reccomendations?! but plenty of time for that ..but at least ive decided something..now i just have to figure out which schools i want to apply to and at some point ill have to start considering the essay reflection thing...but its ok..i have plenty of time to do it!! im not rushing it because i crack easier under that kinda pressure and would just refuse to do it..and i already know that so its easier to avoid it ...