Tuesday, January 29, 2008

hmm

who know i would be so happy to be using my own computer! i finally figured out how to get my computer to work again on nias connection..so i tried it this morning when i got bored and it took a while but it works :) and now during the day i think ill just set up my comp because i like nias comp and all but its not mine..

feeling a lot like hiding today..kinda a lot ashamed of myself for my scars and not accepting them as much as i could..so im just hanging out at home..ill have to go out tomorrow but for today im just staying here and not really doing anything to important..playing online and watching cartoons and the usual wasting the day type stuff..thought about therapy and why it is i wont call around and it all juts comes to a fear of being rejected or told i cant go..makes it harder not having insurance and i know i could prolly find somewhere but im just nervous about it and so i dont call..keep trying to tell myself its not a big deal and plenty of ppl go to therapy but its not working...being scared still wins out..oh well..

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