hmm still really not ok with yesterday night at all..and before that it was spend the day with mommy and a lot of talking about nothing i really wanted to talk about anyway..i hate being stuck with her alone...but anyway got through it and mommy cant drive and yea not really fun being in the car with us and in the pouring rain..i could have thought of a million fther things i would have rather been doing..but we went to the mall and walked around a bit and i got yvonnes christmas/house warming gift since i hadnt gotten her anything yet..hope she like them!

im not getting how it is i cant remember anything and now hope mommy and wayne now i dont remember anything..dont know if it will come up again but i feel stupid for not being able to know my stupid life..last night wayne was talking about how we tried to run away as kids and we couldnt get the door unlocked..i would have been around 4 or 5 and he was 7 or 8..and well it didnt work but it was like it never happened at all and what 5 yr old tries to run away in the first place ?!..he was talking about it and i tried hard to remember and couldnt..i dont remember the houses we lived in in ny or the performances they said we did ever year at carnegie hall and here i am thinking ive never even been there! and i get told yea you performed there...i dont remember my school (minus the uniform bit), i dont remember being driven to school..i dont remember going to church on sunday or any of the stuff they were talking about..its sucks all of it..i have no idea what has really gone on with my dorky little life..but i had to have done it because i have two ppl telling me about it and asking me about it and i just feel stupid because they know and i dont