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im officially unemployed now..and im not sure what i think about it currently..im glad for the break i am..but im not looking forward to going back into the job hunt..i have to rework my resume now and get refrences and all that stuff...and well going home tomorrow...im setting the time frame for just leaving before 10 if im up at 5..lots to get done in those few hours and ive been working pretty hard i would say for the past hour or so going through the last things and throwing bunches of stuff today..dropping off stuff tomorrow morning early at the goodwill and hope i can just leave them there..taking out trash and packing my car and then last but not least giving the apartment a once over cleaning wise! but i dont think that will take to long if i would just get up and do it..i have to be up at 5 no way out of it..ill just have to go to bed early tomorrow to make up for being up so early

the kids are gone!!!!!!!!woohoo...but i do miss them ..i really liked my group this semester by the end ... they were all miserably out of control this morning and would not listen at all..i got to go to the airport and well two of the kids flight got cancelled and we were all freraking out wondering what to do about it because we didnt want to take them back to camp and the other flights were booked and all these things were going on..and luckily they managed to get placed on a different flight going out with another student and gosh i was so happy it worked out...i had no idea what was supposed to be done and it was just a lot of waiting and playing phone tag..how does a plane just break anyway ? ugh..but im glad it worked out..i went to the christmas party and im really not a really social person and so it was a bit painful i guess watching everyone talk and have a good time ..and i couldnt drink becuase of going home tomorrow and having to pack and everything tonight..it wouldnt have worked and i have to keep reminding myself of that..but i suck at small talk and just did a lot of watching and laughing at the silliness going on...my secret santa gift was the best i was told..and it was a picture of a tree changing ..through the seasons kinda but you have to walk past it to see it change lol..and so everyone had to try it out and see it as they walked past ..and im glad i tookd it now becuase at least i know it went to someone who will enjoy it..everyone was surprised that it was from walmart ! but overall i am glad i went because for a while i considered just not showing up and spending the extra time packing and stuff i went and it was like getting the chance to really say goodbye to everyone and my life for the past year..it was hard too but i guess thats just what happens when you leave someplace you have called home for the past year...and i will have to come to asheville to visit sometime too..i may not work for the program again but i still enjoy the camp and the area and i would come back and visit when i could...and no ive im not sorry about the last year..yea parts of it really sucked big time ..but i have had a lot of fun..ive learned a lot and done things i would have never ever ever considered doing before..so no no regrets ...although im sure ill be feeling depressed in a few days over all of it..but for now im ok