slightly accomplished..maybe

im feeling a bit calmer now..i had a few freak out moments earlier and i guess looking at the huge mess i was making by pulling stuff out and then losing interest in packing really fast..but finally got motivated a little bit and cleaned up the living room and the kitchen..yea now i have boxes all over my bed room but at least they are out of the way and no one is allowed in my room but me anyway ..but because of that stupid little ingrained cleaning part i wouldnt have freaked so much.but knowing i was going out of town and knowing everything was pulled out just made me go into overload big time..i had to clean up and it took most of the day to get around to talking myself into actually doing it but now it looks better and im ok with leaving and knowing i cleaned...just have a few more things to do for dusti and im done cleaning..ive packed some but still long ways to go in the apartment..packed for my trip and actually threw in a bathing suit..we are going to an island and the weather is going to be in the 70s..im going swimming..well and i have pants and a tshirt to get soaked in of course..but i got all that packed and now i just have to pick it up in the morning..worked on my latest collage and i had been collecting things for it for a while and finally had to put it together tonight before i just started throwing all the pieces away..its really interesting the phrases and words you can find in a magazine when you are looking for them...went to the library this morning and checked out some books for the trip and a book on tape for me to listen to during the ride..i was completely excited that i found the 2nd and 3rd books in the twilight series! and i packed a journal and my monkey..snacks and other odds and ends for the ride..and of course i made sure to trim my fingernails because the get so dirty so easily out camping! ick its kinda gross...and i guess thats about all