good deeds and other things

so after having dinner and feeling like a pig my mood is still pretty good and im not stressing right now...this morning i went back and forth between packing and not packing..finally got started after having a chat and kinda got the kitchen partially done..lots of things going in the trash but stuff ive had for forever and never used once again i just had to throw away..who knew throwing stuff away could hurt so much lol..i guess it makes me seem silly to get so worked up about throwing stuff away..but its hard sometimes and i hate packing because then i do have to actually go through stuff and find out what i have and what i dont need..but anyway finally gave up after about an hour when i lost interest in it completely..and got online and wasted some time doing various things..and then the ppl who i picked to get some of my clothes i was giving away came and got them and now im waiting to find out when the other ppl are coming to get things.and it creeps me out having ppl i dont know coming to my house but im reminding myself that i have to do it and that its a good thing helping out other ppl because i want to and not because i have to...i ended up going to walmart again because i needed to get some things for packing and as i was in the store i started looking around for jims christmas present and i couldnt decide on anything specific because he is moving and i dont want to get him something big and he wont be able to take it with him..im planning on printing out some pictures for him from both semesters and making a photo album for him..i picked out some really funny cards :) ones that he will enjoy and i liked picking them out because they had me laughing in the middle of the store..but as i was looking a lady came by and she just asked if i would help her find some cards because she had trouble seeing and looking at the small font..and it was just like sure i can help..i helped her find the section she was looking for and she appreciated it and thanked me bunches and i told her i didnt mind helping her at all because i really didnt...and after walking past carts full of boxes i finally dug up the courage to ask if i could have some of them and managed to get a few more boxes..and didnt die in the process! and then as i was driving back they were taking up collections for a charity at one of the stop lights and i decided to give and it really felt nice...its not like i gave a lot and i wasnt planning on doing anything like that but today it was ok...so im trying hard to hold on to my decently good mood...talking to mommy annoyed me a little but i just let it go since i was in the store and doing other things...so now tarzan is on and i think ill let it play loud enough to hear in the other room and see about getting some more packing done