im feeling so tired and worn out right now..all day we have been cleaning and moving with the kids..ugh me and jim have been making them seriously clean the kitchen..and it was a lot of work..we were cleaning the stove and ovens and the fridge and throwing away food and mopping and all of that and then they have to turn around and do tons of dishes and little things and then have to pack and clean the cabins and they are tired and we are tired and i never want to see bleach again lol...i found it finally and poured enough into the gross bathrooms to kill every little germ possible and kinda thought about how we were always cleaning with bleach as a kid..hmm but then got to busy to really dwell on it...but thankfully we are starting to finish up what my group has to do today except dinner clean up and then we get to make sundaes with them and that will be fun..we have to share with the other group and i dont think that is fair because my group worked so much harder but still we have to share...this morning in group i called out one of the girls for being disrespectful to her parents on the phone..seriously the girl got on the phone last night and just demanded everything and was yelling and being rude for no real reason and i told her to stop more than once last night and then forgot about it by the time i got back to the cabin but i brought it up this morning and it really sucks that she is treating her parents like that..and it sucks even more than her parents let her because of her 'differences' and not being able to handle her at all..and so i called her out on it and she didnt care at all and i was ready to cry about the whole thing for reasons im still not clear about..i told her if i had treated my mom like that i would have been slapped in a heartbeat..and i would have been..somehow i just knew that being mean to mommy was something i did only when i had a death wish.. and even then i knew to tread lightly because getting on mommys bad side was asking was days or weeks of trouble for some small thing...i dont think she is getting it though..because no i dont happen to really have the best relationship with mommy but i would never treat her like that...because regardless of everything mommy is always the one we go to when we have a questions about something that she would know or to get money help or knowing we can go home whether we want to or not because she is mommy and that wont change...and this kid is going to lose that as she gets older if she doesnt get her act together and that really makes me sad


that all aside these kids are ready to go home and im ready for them to go home lol...its been a fun semester but still im ready for it to be over..although on friday night i have to get the last minute cleaning done in the apartment and all that and then on saturday im heading home for good...and now i guess im have gone through all the stages of refusing and what not because now i just find an emptiness when i think about going home..beyond being upsset about it now i guess..and now i just havee to deal with it as best as possible right...