right im not supposed to complain..its taking a lot to get used to being at home and e verything is just kinda thrown off..its become my job i suppose to make sure my sister gets to work every morning and evening..and getting her there and back is a hassle because of all the traffic and i hate driving in traffic because i sstill get nervous..but that has become my job..waking up early and then waking her up is a pain ...

mommy is of course pushing hard for me to get a job as fast as possible..she is already bringing home the classifieds and everything and telling me what i hsould be doing ..i havvent even managed to get my resume off of my own computer yet and i cant really do anything until that s taken care of..im not sure whwere i want to work or what i want to do..im not even sure how to upgrade my resume yet..i know the job ive done for the past year but its hard writing it on a resume and summing it all up..that i was going to try to do today and then you know go to dees house and print off copies and print off some applications and things so i can start applying..i thought i would be able to get a break being at home even for a couple weeks but it seems im just as busy here..
but in other news..although im not sure how far ill manage because theres not much happiness going around inside right now..umm i went and visited one of my old teachers and talked about life and such..with only a little bit of therapy involved and nothing to big either lol but itwas a nice visit and im glad she was ablee to see me...talk about saving my sanity! she talked to me about going into the msw program and i told her i would look into it...

kinda sucks not having my comp hooked up because now we cant chat anymore and cant really get into anything anymore...im not even sure i remember what my aol name was and thats all my sister has on her comp..and the one i made forever ago just doesnt fit anymore! ugh

oh well gotta go