pain...randomness

i am in way to much pain right now..i have to fight to urge to just go throw something at the wall...im in a bad mood...completely annoyed for freaking out and emailing my teacher...i should have known better and i should have calmed way downw before emailing...

three blogs in one day...i must be bored


i actually listened to my pure moods cd today...i havent listened to it in over 4 years...i had forgotten how much i liked it..

im to hot right now...its to hot outside and its making my room mega hot...i hate being to hot because i cant just like pull on a tank top and walk around in it..its gonna be 81 freakin degrees tomorrow and ill refuse to take off my jacket as usual..i think ill die in my jacket...

does it hurt to die? i dont know..maybe it only hurts if it doesnt work...i watched 28 days tonight..maybe thats why im thinking of suicide...i had forgotten there was a suicide in that movie...it was still a good movie though...i need a new movie selection...mine are kinda depressing but i like them...there are a few i want to get that wouldnt be a good idea to have but ill get them anyway...

i really wish yvonne would get back..to get her puppy and i want to go to bed....maybe ill sleep with music tonight .. im gonna start purging again...well im trying not to but going home makes me choose between cutting and purging and its easier to hide puurging...i cant cut or burn for that matter because im still having trouble walking with the cuts i ha ve now...and riley and harris have sharp elbows..they manage to poke me right where i dont need to be poked..and its not like they know why but it hurts..the closer i get to going home the more i feel like purging..but im not eating enough to make purging worth...i dont know..i hmmm i dont know what im thinking about tonight

my computer is seriously breaking too...

nothing else can happen this year..please dont let anything else happen this year