flying

im tired..so i guess im getting ready for bed in some way but i know it will be a bad night sleeping..ill have to think about getting some more first aid junk tomorrow...i am doing a horrible job managing time but i seriously doubt ill make it to the store...i have to do the journals ive been putting off..im going to talk to her anyway tomorrow..im getting so behind in that class...i just sit in class and half listen..i dont need to do that..tomorrow both my monday classes are back in and that will be a bit harsh but oh well, i like human behavior and we are on erikson and i like his theories....its not like i would skip those classes...ive done really well with not skipping my monday/wed classes...the only one i really skip is econ and im working on stopping that one too...now if only i would pay attention in classes...my attention span is seriously getting lower...i let my thoughts get the best of me but sometimes what im thinking just gets my full attention..class or not...so ill see how i manage tomorrow...trying to find my other jacket cas i have to wash my white one to take it home..im going home..i really really wish i wasnt now...i shouldnt have called home when i did today and i knew as soon as it got on the topic of what i was wearing i should have kept my mouth closed and not say anything but i couldnt do that...i just set myself up to get in trouble and it was stupid and i was stupid for taking it so far and now i have a bad feeling ive set myself up for trouble...i shouldnt have mentioned not wanting to wear capris over jeans...now i have to wear them to keep my mom from asking to see my legs or something..and i dont want to wear them, didnt want to wear them to begin with and now im suckered into the whole thing...why do i have to dress up to be stuck with a couple of kids all day? im not expecting to see anyone i know there and ill be in the kids area anyway who will know me? its not like anyone would be looking for me except riley and harris and they just dont really care what i wear as long as im with them...i hate clothes, i hate phones,i hate myself for losing my temper..ive really got to stop doing that...got it back under control i guess but then that would bring up why i wont be sleeping tonight...i shouldnt have cut today...i sholdnt have cut yesterday...i shouldnt have started..today has been so so long..im not looking forward to tomorrow