hungry...not

i purged,,,i swore i wouldnt but i cant cut and i had to do something..it hurt though...more than usually but maybe it was because i was seriously out of practice...i dont know..i mean geez what did i eat today...2 bb muffins, cereal and toast but i purged some of that...pineapple and some crackers...i ate to much yea but i shouldnt have done the purge bit again...i dont want to get back into every day with it...but im not cutting either..ive come to hate tradeoffs