neverending thoughts

i prolly should have eaten this morning but there was nothing i wanted...im hungry kinda but i dont feel like eating yet..ill eat before work ithink...most likely ill go get a bagel to eat at work...havent finished packing..i have to get dusti set up to stay here for the weekend...good thing yvonne is staying till saturday at least...and then ill be back sunday afternoon im hoping..

my teacher emailed me back and she still isnt giving me the answer im looking for...what she says makes since but whatever im trying to ask about i havent managed to do yet and its annoying me...i just know it hasnt been answered...i havent finished chapter 8 yet still...i should finish it...i have every intention of finishing it but its taking forever...im scared of it for some reason and its not even that hard..changing behaviors...i dont know..something about it is really throwing me off.. and i know if i keep emailing my teacher about it she will ask to see me and ill go and still not be ablee to figure out what the heck im trying to say or ask...ive thought about it none stop for the past few days and i stilll cant figure it out..

im really cold right now..the air is blasting in the lab and freezing me...i left my jacket at home actually today..but i have on long sleeves too...not the thickest shirt i own so im really cold right now and 9 to 10 my fingers are turning blue again..but since i did my nails last night i cant tell anymore...kinda sucks my fingers turn blue sitting in the computer lab...im pretty sure thats not a normal everyday occurence...and it takes forever for me to warm up again...outside in the sun or not....

going home tonight...dont really want to go home, but promised i would..so im going home..and leaving dusti here..and i dont want her to stay here but its better that she does this time...and i better get back to working on the journal...while i have a bti of time and no way to do anything 'bad' if i start freaking out...