Saturday, January 14, 2012

where things are at..

well this has been an interesting week to say the least..i dont know really what it is that i want to write about really but i know stuff is on my mind..i just gotta figure out what it is that is in my head and what it is that i am thinking about and worrying about right now.. i dont know..

sleeping has been weird this week..im tired all the time ..and i actually came home to take a nap one day because i was so tired..i guess part of it has to do with the exffexor and everything..and it getting back in my system..but yeah for some reason im just really tired ..

i think im feeling sad today..but im not sure..maybe im just feeling lonely a bit.  and im feeling disappointed that i cant afford to go to fla next week.  i really wanted to go to the confrence thing..but i cant afford it and im trying to be okay with that..and know that i can maybe go next year instead..and that its a good thing to catch up on bills you know and possibly even not over draw my bank account at the end of the month..i know its the adult thing to do..to pay my bills and not be late..and i know that ..i should be thrilled to make a good decision..but darn it to heck i wanted to go to fla..i really truly wanted to go..but darn money just didnt work out..and so i guess ill just have to suck it up and deal with it...but it is just disappointing..im disappointed..but ill get over it.

i dont know ..something is bothering me .i just dont know what it is right now..i cant seem to identify it..

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