weighty issues

you know..i am becoming obessed again with weight..weighing myself..eating, not eating.. im slowly and steadily losing weight...wont get into how its being done but it is being done..and the interesting thing is that one of the side effects of the medication that im taking is anorexia..how horrible is that?!?!  but once again ive spent the past hour or so just reading articles and looking at pictures about models, weight loss, etc..i see all these pictures of these thin and pretty women and i want what they have you know..and maybe that is just my head getting the best of me or something. i dont know. but it is so hard for me to see  and know that i am looked down at for being overweight you know...i dont know..i dont think im able to write what im thinking about right now...