sad

Im sad..its more than being sad though..i feel empty..aimless..i don’t know what im doing type sad..im just laying down doing nothing at all..and I just want to lay down forever and not have to do anything or deal with doing anything..im tired of doing things..ill have to force myself to get up and get ready for work eventually…and I do not want to ha ve to talk to my doctor about a med change or anything..i want these to work..and its not..and I don’t know..sometimes I feel fine..but lately..i just feel sad and out of sorts..and suicidal..i don’t even want to cut..i just want to die..to go away..why am I feeling so bad? I don’t know…