stupid sun

is it just me or does the sun manage to get brighter every morning...maybe because it was so gray yesterday today is just an after affect and its not really that bright or maybe it should stop shining directly at my window..this is turning into a really depressing week..ive been trying to catch dr bass in her office for reasons i dont know yet, just want to see her i guess..and i told prof dunn yesterday that im seriously behind in all my worok and i am..working on the prject for tomorrow today with kitta and i have to do a couple things on campus before we meet and i dont need to hang out in bed all day even if it is what i want to do...and so i guess its good my new game hasnt gotten here yet becasue then i really wouldnt be doing any work...and i suck..and im a bit annoyed what i ddid yesterday and the nightbefore that arent hurting anymore..didnt really hurt to begin with...ive screwed up royally with eating and so yea i ate but without purging and no way i want to think about it makes it ok since it was pizza..i miss having the house to myself all the time..im just complaining a lot today..i forgot what i was thinking about this morning..something about being hyponotised could be fun in an incredibly creepy no idea what i would say kinda way..i think i would be really easy to hyponotise though and thats just creepy too..oh rant yesterday aboout being sick of everyone assuming ill do something or agree to something with out asking me..almost always ill say yes anyway but at least give me benefit of the doubt and ask anyway..maybe i should hide out in my room for a few days until i figure out the secret to disappear..maybe ill be doomed to suffer for eternity..and maybe im juts completely making things a lot worse right now than they need to be...but i sitll think the sun is stupid