Often the test of courage is not to die,but to live.
- Orestes

i really need to find other movies to watch..rent is a depressing movie and now im just getting nervous ..i like the movie and i know ill watch it and once again i thouhgt about how glad i was that i didint get caught up in drugs..and right after that i told myself that i was doing the same thing..regardless of if i was using drugs or not..being completely realistic here for a minute, i really am doing the same thing..so i dont need hundreds on drugs or have needle marks going up and down my arm or whatever else but in a nutshell you destroy your body and life on drugs...ok fine now if i really think about all the stuff i do and even if i dont really want to admit it yea im working on destroying my body..im not really sure if im destroying my life but i guess if i have someone threatening to put me in the hospital then life cant be that great..why i thought of that tonight i really dont know and i dont want to know but now im thinking about it and it wont go away..im
well im just me i guess..not sure yet if thats a good thing but oh well...but now im watching the oscars and its funny and ill rethink all of it later..