i dont know

i dont see how parents can not choose there kids over anyone else..i dont see why they do either especially if its a matter of safety of kids..it bothers a lot me that it happens..i watched bastard out of carolina again and its one of those movies that is made really really good but its one of those hard to actually like because it deals with child abuse...and ive seen it more than once..ive seen it enough to know the whole movie and still i just end up thinking the same thing..parents can really suck sometimes..and how in the world could anyone do that to a kid..the bad part being that it happens a lot and that sucks even more..now the fact that im alone just doesnt seem like its such a great idea..i cant even figure out where my head went...i feel so pissed off but i cant be that..more like i dont want to be that..and then i have to think about everything ive been hearing about the acceptance thing and its like ok then i know why im bothered i just dont know why i dont want it..if i let it staay it will wear off and ill just really really sad and i dont want that either...id rather just not feel anything..but for what its worth i guess ill try and if it doesnt kill me ill know its not so bad..maybe kinda sorta