home

the only thing i keep thinking about today is that someone told me home is where your happy..i just keep wanting to compare home here in the apartment to home with mommy..and the differences are really obvious but i dont know..theres just something about it i havent figured out yet..like it really is one of the most basic things have ever been told but ive never heard it until now..and its just one of those things i needed to hear a long time ago and didnt...like i went home but i wasnt at home and now i am.. im happy to be back, im happy to have all my stuff here like i left it..even if i did have to clean up everything i left down because i was in such a rush leaving..now im taking a break because my head is hurting a little bit and im just sick of cleaning up for right now and im not worried about getting in trouble for stopping..bubt now that im not with mommy anymore i dont want to think about anything that happened while i was there..you know im thinking i need to stop associating going home with going to see mommy..anyway the weekend was ok,went to the movies with riley and harris and one of rileys friends...then suddenly i was like the only girl in the house not counting there mom because tyler came over ..and good grief 4 boys at once can be nerve racking..i dont know how sissy manages her 3 boys! harris ended up sleeping in my bed last night though because there werent enough to go around in the room they shared and its been a while since he has been there all night and he still sleeps incredibly close...i told them i would come back for the festival weekend in a couple weeks and i will just because i always take them and its fun..in a very long day im never having kids kinda way..

this is going to be a long week..i wasnt even back yet and already i was stressing about everything that i have to get done this week...everything is due now and i have to figure out some way to get my volunteer hours in..i have to finish my paper and start on another one.. i have to get my interview done and ill have to check the date but im all most positive i have therapy this week..funny im not completely dreading it since i finally have something to say..i have to registar and go talk to dr miller and im expecting an email from prof dunn soon to and some other things im prolly forgetting but i know ill have to do anyway..but we have more silly string again....still finding silly string from the last war and her mom got us more of it lol, yep it will be fun..

hmm only cut once at home even though i thought about it alot..but i picked a lot at old ones...ate ok i guess and took my vitamins and in a couple months hopefully i wont have to remind myself that its actually a good thing to keep taking them..im working on the whole should thing..i put should on a lot of things that dont need it and it turns it into something that makes it easier for me to get annoyed at myself when it most likely had nothing to do directly with me..the noticing thing just blows big time but i guess it will get easier once im more used to it.