empty

theres nothing left..i havent felt anything since after i wrote yesterday but i didnt cut either..instead i wrote here some but i wrote more on my computer and just saved it..im not sure what ill do with it but i do know ii dont want to keeep what i wrote..but i dont think it would be good to just throw it away either..ill think of some middle ground for it and i was thinking about where to take it this morning and i do know where it would be safe at its just a matter of if ill do it or not..yesterday was a bit more than my regular writing..i write a lot here and i dont know yet if ill put any of what i have on my comp here..mainly because it will be way to long..all the same now i dont really know what im supposed to be doing..im not suicidal anymore but if im not feeling anything i cant be so sure..maybe something has changed now..maybe i finally get what everyone is trying to tell me..i dont know