yesterday was not a good day...

yesterday was really hard,..i wanted to die to put it simply and if i had been alone i prolly would have tried ... head was just not together at all yesterday..and i was hurting and sad and just not even sure what was driving the thoughts...i didnt cut..go figure..but i wanteed to die..i dont know..i spent most of the day at the office trying to work on paperwork...and i did get part of it turned in...still have some to do..pdoc didnt call me back yesterday.and neither did my therapist...which is why i jsut came home and went to sleep..this is all i do now ...see my clients and then sleep...thats all i can seem to manage...