i am angry. angry angry angry.  never once in my life have i been put first for anyone..by anyone..never once was my needs placed before anyone elses..never ever ever. and now all i want to be first for someone..anyone..i want to be the important one. i want to feel like i matter..why do i have to forgive anyone?? why do i have to suffer because of what happened to me?? its not fair ? im hurt ..i was hurt. i am mad that i was hurt so much..