and this would be the draw back of my job

if i could just scream in frustration right now i would...i really really would...

one of my clients is upset with me..and left me a message telling me that it was of course MY fault that she missed her meeting...now i would feel bad if i hadnt tried to get her..or called and let her know i was running late.. i wasnt messing around at home or just wasting time..i was in the damn office because i needed to talk to my supervisor and we went a little bit over and so yes i was running a bit late..but i could have been to her and she wouldnt have missed her meeting..but she didnt call me until hours later..to tell me that it was my fault she didnt go...and so i call ed her back and left the most sickeningly upbeat message i could manage..because again this is one of those clients that i have just bent backwards for and something comes up and now im in the wrong in some major way..and it just pisses me off...so i attempted to call her today.to set up for this week...and well she let me know that she had it covered..and i said ok...what did she think i was going to do??? beg her??? no i said ok..and let her know i was available...i apologized yet again..and hung up...and yep i am feeling so very very pissed off right now..which is why i am writing instead of doing anything else...im really mad..and feel like i am at fault ..because no if it was that important she could have walked...she has already told me she doesnt even care about the meetings and only go for the food..but whatever...she can blame me if it will make her feel better...ill just send an email to my supervisor and give her a heads up..and i guess ill just wait it out..and see what happens...you know...i just have way to much other stuff going on right now to be that concerned with this particular client..and maybe that makes me awful..and selfish and all sorts of things..but this woman is not a child...she is making her choices..and she has to live with the outcomes not me..and so she can accept the help or not..i really dont care at this point...and maybe that is just the anger speaking right now...who knows...im just pissed off...