ive picked the heck out of my fingers..i dont know why i kept at it even after i made most of them bleeding..i still kept picking and then it was just like hooly crap..i shouldnt have done that..and i really shouldnt have but i cant magically make my fingers all better..ill be lucky if they dont get infected..i need to cut my fingernails and maybe that will help..

tired..another night of being so sidetracked and putting off paperwork..i suck