how

please tell me hos its possible that i was supposed to be getting time off this week to just catch up and do some stuff i wanted to do..and yet im busier this week than i was last week when i had my usual cl work..god i dont need anymore freakin free time..i cant seem to keep what i have..and it so annoying that i say im going to use the time to just do other stuff and as soon as mommy found out i wasnt working as much its turned into i need you to do this and this and this and im so stressed out right now i dont know what to do because all my free time is being used running errands all over the place and i cant do all of that and what im expected to do and i cant even say no to anything now..because i was trying ot be nice and telling mommy i would help becuase she is working extra this week and she hurt her ankle last week and i was trying to be helpful and not argue and so i said i would help some but now its like i have to do all this stuff and well to bad if i end up being late to work because i have to take nia to work..i have to be at work at 1 i have to go and pick up nia at 12 to drive her a half hour out of the way of everything and then turn back around and hope traffic isnt so bad and i can even get to work on time..and then all the extra paperwork im still catching up on and not being able to sleep without nightmares..got five hours off and on last night and stayed up doing paperwork until i fell asleep at my comp only to wake up this morning to finish it enough to turn it in and then ended up meeting with my supervisor this morning while i was there an they are coming out to my job and i had to take someone some place for mommy and so now i have enough time to put on clean clothes and run back out to take nia and go to work and after work i have to go to the library because i have books out and then i may or may not have to go help mommy at work and tomorrow im busy all day with work stuff but im sure somehow mommy will get some time out of me and then friday i alraedy know im babysitting and thats when they come back from there trip and i have to go over there and will prolly be there all weekend again..just like every other weekend of my miserable existence..so no i dont freaking need anymore free time i cant keep the time i have and everyone else is more freakin important than i am so im expected to just drop everything else to do what someone else wants..i want this week to be over right now

i feel like my head is going to crack..all ive been doing is constantly going over what i have to do and what time i have to be places and then having to go back and change stuff and try to add more stuff and wondering why in the hell there are only 24 hours in a day..whos bright idea was that because obviously i need at least 30 to even begin to handle everything i need to get done..