i dont fit in anywhere...

mood kinda dropped a bit since this morning..was having one of my ok days..and im sure it prolly had something to do with that my arm is hurting so much i dont what to think about it..but its like i cant complain either..my pain...i did it..so suffer in silence..yet again .. and i really have no idea how it is ppl cant feel my scars through my shirt when they touch my upper arm? most of the time i end up jerking away anyway but when i dont..i wonder why no one asks..but anyway..was just thinking today ..well tonight that i dont fit in..and i keep looking for a place to belong and i cant seem to find it..i dont even know how to describe what im looking for..how will i know if i find it? how ill i know if i never find it? i just want a place to be myself..completely..regardless of everything..i want to be able to walk around in a tank top if i want too..or to wear shorts..and not have to worry about getting funny looks because of all the scars..i want to be able to say im having a crummy day and have someone tell me it will be ok..or to cry and not be laughed at..or to be able to talk without being afraid..safety..love..understanding..caring..i want all of it..and cant find it...im just alone ...