odd...

ive always heard the you can laugh so much you start crying line and i never really thought it was possible until tonight. just randomly in ihop i passed the point of laughing and was beginning to cry and how i got theere im not sure i know because we were just talking about the music selection...i had been laughing a lot but that is to be expected when im with yvonne and alexis for long periods of time and we had been quite a few places before ending up in ihop at 2 in the morning..but i dont know i had no reason to cry i just couldnt stop it in a way and me being me got up and went to the bathroom before i seriously started crying because i wouldnt be able to explin why in the first place...its just making me feel weird..we were at the hospital earlier tonight because alexis wasnt feeling right off heartbeats and we went just to make susre she was ok and im glad we went but hospitals just really creep me out and the little while i was actually sitting by myself i was so nervous and scared and its not like anything could have happened but all the same i was worried something would happen, i was close to believing someone was going to just jump out and grab me i was so nervous...and the fact that there are now cops and things and my bag was checked and i have a razor in my bag that i didnt really want found..its on my keychain and its like a letter opener but it works all the same for what i use it for and its not for opening letters...so anyway the whole night has just been interesting i guess..sad i ended up cutting but it was either cut or not be able to sit still all night..cutting won out and it just sucks at how well it works at calming my nerves :(