another day

today has been uneventful..did some cleaning, watched some tv, worked out, ate like i have a bit of sense left...overall not bad..a bit dull but hmm i like ive depressed myself enough to just dull everything out...hence ive been thinking about it im not majorly depressed because that comes and goes and doesnt stay long since i rarely spend my days hiding in bed, i prefer to hide in the house but not in bed it gets boring after a while and i coould so spend my time watching cartoons..so anyway not major but just a low grade kinda thing, its always there but it doesnt get in the way of to many things i do...randomly i was trying to figure out today the last time i cut and i really dont remember..i know i did when i got back becuase that weekend classes started was horrible but then its just like hmm ok im pretty sure ive done it but i have no new scars anywhere..weird i guess but im avg'ing its been a couple weeks at least..possibly when i started finding out b/p had its high points..but anyway not really what i wanted to write about tonight...hmm what did i want to write about any way? i dont know just my usual i have nothing else to do might as well bore myself until i can get my head to quiet down...so...the weather is getting gross again, cold and rainy and just the general stay in the house and waste all day weather..i have to finish stuff for my application tomorrow..i might work on my resume a bit tonight while i watch strong medicine..ill catch up on the readings and things ive put off tomorrow too and hmmm i guess i should have been a bit more productive this weekend but not having to watch the puppy doesnt happen often and i liked the peace and quiet of it...i finished the book i was reading last night and it took three days but darnit i shouldnt have raed it so fast..the last book in the series is still kindof expensive and i dont want to buy it yet...and now im just about dying to know what will happen next..ugh..i wonder if its in our library on campus...worth looking into lol..i have to start figuring out an outfit for my interview stuff..i need some new black pants...actually i think i might need a whole new outfit..i feel like shopping anyway...but after i spent way to m uch money last week im laying low on buying anything else for now..ill wait and see what i can pull up..essh i dont want to even consider having to wear a skirt..major no..and i hate dressing up..but guess ill be practicing my walking in boots again...and now im off to waste more time and im going to wash my hair..adios

Expecting life to treat you well because you are a good person is like expecting an angry bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian.-- Shari R. Barr