Super cool though ..seeing a rainbow on the way home this afternoon..i mean it was pouring rain and i couldnt see to save my life..and finally it lightened up..and i just looked over and there was this massively bright rainbow :)
so about today...mood is still majorly down and out...and i just keep thinking about how much i want a break from life..and how it is unfair that i have to be so upbeat and postive for my clients to give them reasons to keep hanging on..when i feel like im just barely hanging on myself..the hope is that my meds will come in this week..i was at the clinic this morning and they were not in yet..so i am still waiting for them...good grief i hope they come in this week... but saw the doc this morning and got med refills and a butt load of other appointments..i mean they are all helpful appointments..but really..do i really need to suffer through ANOTHER gyno appointment.. :( that is going to be hard..doubly hard in that im pretty sure ive been assigned a male doc..but i have that..and then an appt with a nutritionist, the reg pharm d appt, sleep study, lab work, and another reg doc appt..all within the next month and a half...i want to scream..and well the doc appts just make me so nervous and they try to take my pulse and blood pressure and it gets so very high and im trying to calm down but it doesnt work..ugh..so did that this morning..and yeah..majorly not nice to have to go to the doc after the holidays...felt like a major pig being weighed this morning..ugh..
worked for most of the afternoon though..and now i am at home again..about to get dinner started and then buckling down for a night of paperwork..my goal is to work on it tonight and get it all done and organized and ready to be turned in ON TIME tomorrow...its been a while i know..but just the issue of having extra time anyway..and not turning it in on time would be not the best idea..so either way i have quite a bit to do..but will be doing it tonight..maybe it will be another night of having a hard time sleeping..and so ill stay up and just work on notes...fun..
but ok im hungry..so guessing im gonna go and work on dinner..thats the plan
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