i hate everything

i dont think i can get any more depressed right now..my head is killing me. and i cant think anymore today and just the idea of talking to anyone else gives me a headache. i couldnt take work anymore so i came home.. talked to the clinic today and my meds were there...later this afternoon they finally call me again to let me know that there was some form missing that they sent in this morning..and i told her i was out of meds..and no where has samples..and so there only other option is to give me a script and for me to see if i can fill it..really?? can i could swear i was seeing them because i couldnt afford the $250 script in the first place..and the withdrawl is awful and bad and making me feel crazy and mean and anixous and annoyed and i cant stand being near anyone and i dont want to talk to anyone..and its all very frustrating..and hiding and crying is all i want to do..but i cant even focus enough to remember i want to cry..i dont know when the meds will be in..and i already know i cant afford the meds ..so all i can do is wait it out and hope the withdrawl stuff starts to lessen or something..i hate everything right now..and its prolly best that i keep mmy contact with other ppl to a minimum..feel free to ignore me..thats what im trying to do