Sunday, November 13, 2011

doing things alone

i have been thinking about this a lot lately.  there is  confrence that i want to go to and its in january of next year..and i want to go..but i would be traveling by myself ..and that scares me a lot.  but i dont want to miss out on the confrence either..i really do want to go...but can i go alone?? why does it freak me out so much ?  i am an adult..i should be able to do things alone without freaking out about it. i really should..but fear continues to stop me..well fear keeps me from branching out and doing things.  i do want to go though and im just trying to convince myself that i can do it..that i can go. i will know ppl there..kinda..long story..but i would be going alone...hmm dont know...i cant decide..and sometimes the fear just stops me cold.and i cant do it..i get to scared..

ugh..i am more than my fear make me out to be...gosh darnit..i just gotta remember that...i am...


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