You know I really really pissed off right now and im trying to let it go and move on but I keep thinking about it and it makes me mad…I really wonder if I am just expected to be happy all the time…am I not allowed to be sad or upset or have a bad day with out it being questioned or commented on in a way that makes me wish I hadn’t said anything…and yet im considered paranoid when I say that stuff has a way of getting back to mommy..freaking a ..someone tells mommy that because of stuff I have posted on facebook that they can tell I haven’t been happy..or there was a time I wasn’t happy…really?? Why is it her busy?? Why does it feel like im being told on? Why is it not ok for me to have a bad day or something without mommy having to end up questioning it…its not her business..its no ones business to go back and talk about what ive written or posted or whatever..i feel like im always going to have to ce nsor what I say because someone it will be used against me in some way..god a lot of stuff has happened in the past two months..i would say that being sad or not happy was perfectly acceptable..job issues..pet issues..money issues..no I haven’t been happy darn it…there is a lot going on and im sorry that im not able to always present as being happy..to freaking bad..
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