my own worst enemy....

thats what i am today...i am at war with myself..with my thoughts..feelings..emotions..all of it...i cant deal with how i am today and that is casue for concern i guess...and i just cant figure out why...its pretty bad today..and i have a major headache and am feel very just 'no touch/no talk' mode..and i dont know how to get out of this mood...right now im just hanging out at my work office using the internet and seeing if that will help..but i dont think ill stay to long today..because i just want to go and hide out at home or just isolate big time...i dont know..