whats going on??

head is in a very very weird space today..ugh...im tired ..and i know that is making me a bit cranky to put it nicely..i couldnt sleep last night..and really just kinda watched the time go by...couldnt focus...went from watching tv to playing on the computer..looking up random info...planning for future things...just doing a lot of stuff that i didnt need to do and not doing the stuff i did need to do...have i mentioned that i have a massive headache right now ?

this weekend i will be by myself and i think that is making me feel really nervous...i almost cant remember the last time i had a group of days to myself at heathers house..i know they went out of town in nov of last year but that feels like forever ago..and i dont know..just kinda used to someone always being around now..and there always being someone in the house..or i know they are coming back..i mean ive been in the house alone you know..but like i dont know..just nervous..i know ill be ok but the worry is there..wow im freaked about being alone..that hasnt happened in a while..essh

there is snow coming to va tonight and tomorrow..and im hoping majorly for a snow day! i really am..even though i had one over the weekend lol..i want another one..i want to sleep all day..but ill have work to get caught up on..and well if it snows like the weather report says it will then that means no t tomorrow..and that will be very sad :( i dont drive when it is actually snowing..not in my car..and most definitely not with my windshield being cracked the way it is...not gonna happen..because i just freak out..and freaking out leads to mistakes and accidents and gosh my car is already holding on for its dear life..i dont need to send it to an early demise...so yeah..if its snowing tomorrow morning my butt will be at home..maybe ill work on a collage tomorrow...really needing to get some stuff outta my head..and i feel the sad thoughts becoming a little overwhelming..


and not doing paperwork right now so i guess ill go and do something productive...im going to check out a couple apartment places and see..if any are promising.

blah...very distracted and tired right now..and its not turning into a good day for work...essh