im feeling pretty invalidated right now :( and its bothering me..so im writing about it... i realize that sometimes i react first and think later...whats so wrong with that ??? i needed to get my feelings out yesterday..i needed to be over the top and upset and sad and all of that..i know what is going on isnt the end of the world and i dont appreciate being told that at all..i dont like it being implied that i have managed worse and so this is nothing..that makes me upset and makes it seem like my current stress just isnt important at all.. and i guess i know it wasnt done in a way to be mean or anything but it hurt all the same..because it was real for me..it was hard yesterday and i just wanted a little support not a lecture...yes i knew i would calm down and be able to think through the issues..i knew i would realize eventually that it would be ok and it would work out..and i dont know..just bothered by a reply and maybe im looking to deeply into it..i dont know..i just felt like a child reading it..and i dont like that..and so yeah..gonna just work on letting it go..cas if i dwell on it then it wont be a good thing...-sigh-
because yes i freaked yesterday..and you know what i dont care..it was all overwhelming yesterday and i reacted ..whats so bad about that ?? ugh.. yes im feeling more ok today..a bit sad but no where near the mess i was yesterday..gosh i just needed time to calm down and think through it all..and i ijust needed a little time to process you know...blah..im just a bit annoyed..and tired from not sleeping .. essh..glad today is a short day work wise...im tired
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