changes...

tonight...for the first time in over a year..i took down my quote..

"...I stood close to a beautiful picture window, my eyes focused on the other side. I was always looking on the other side, dangling too close to the edge. and one day I would jump. I would jump to be free or jump to die....whichever..."

i still relate to it...i still feel that it speaks to me..but i think that i am ready to move on from it too...im no longer looking at jumping..i dont want the choice to be between freedom or death..its not fair..its not fair to me to look at that and wonder which i would jump for...i jump for neither..and maybe that is what i need to realize..

my new quote


"The art of being yourself at your best is the art of unfolding your personality into the person you want to be. . . . Be gentle with yourself, learn to love yourself, to forgive yourself, for only as we have the right attitude toward ourselves can we have the right attitude toward others."~ Wilfred Peterson

i like it..its a lesson i am still learning...i will learn to forgive myself..i will learn to love myself...i will learn to accept myself...those are my goals..and i will have to keep writing about them until they are ingrained in my mind..so that i dont forget...

i dont want to forget...i dont want to forget that things can be better..i dont want to give up hope...

this is big..this is over two years in the making i think..because i remember talking to the 1st linda about that quote .. hwile i still lived at home..and now..almost 2 and a half years later...im ready to let it go..