just feeling pressured again....

im feeling super pressure right now and so im trying to write before it becomes overwhelming and all sorts of stuff...its just a lot of stuff going on and im trying to figure it out and figure out how to get it all fit in...

i asked today about an extension with my friends and staying another month..because i think that by march i will be able to move and have a better standing on things...i really do...now i asked today what i would need to have that extension..and pretty much was told that of course a new lease will be written up..ubt also that i had to be working 40 hours and have health insurance..and the working 40 hours is understandable..i mean i have to get 40 hours to make enough to live on you know and even make it possible for me to move out...but its the health insurance that is worrying me right now ... i feel like i HAVE to find another job and i have to find it right now..and i dont know how that is going to work out..i mean yes i have resumes out there and im looking you know...i am...but im not hearing back..and so im slowly getting more hours at my current job..but no insurance...and that is the part of it that sucks ..because of all of my head stuff i do need insurance..and ive considered paying out of pocket for my insurance..and i know that it will be pretty much 400 a month for insurance..when i dont make enough to cover that and bills..not really..not with rent and other bills that will be starting again...i can hold out for a job that has benefits included...but i dont know...i feel very stuck right now..and unsure again of what to do...i know i still have a few weeks to kinda get things in order still..and to let my friends know for sure what my plan is going to be...but in these few weeks its like ..well you have to keep looking for a job ..and keep doing all of this stuff..and it becomes overwhelming big time...but i know the request is legit and not over the top..and thats sort of the hard part..i know they have my best interest at heart and that they are trying to help..and that they are pushing so that ill make better choices..and get things in order..but it is pressuring too..and i dont know what to choose...ill keep looking for apartments..and everything..and keep looking for deals..i will...