Thursday, July 02, 2009

nightly rambles

Im ok..awake still and tired and well to many things to really mention but yes ok again. we have read two full books tonight which is prolly why im still wired completely and awake..but the first one turned into a trigger for some of the eating issues and i think that is what brought forth the sad feelings..

and mommy lost some money today and she kept asking if i had seen it when i hadnt but its like she wasnt trusting that i was telling the truth..just kinda i dont know ..made me feel bad..cas i told her no..and it was the truth and she just kept asking me like i was lying ..being accused of things is a big big trigger im guessing...guess today well tonight has been one thing after another in that aspect of things..

have been picking at bug bites again..they are all bleeding..yet again ..you would think i would learn my lesson and stop adding more spots to my already scarred body..but no..i keep picking..scratching..whatever it takes...but im not cutting ... and yet that doesnt make me feel happy at all

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