same old stuff

im ok..just sad but thats nothing new..keep having to remind myself that what happened yesterday was not ok..and that mommy had no right at all to do what she did..mother or not ..i guess its just the way she did it and just assumed she would get her way..im tired of her getting her way..and making me feel bad in the process..linda said its not ok that she can make me feel so bad so fast..that its not good that she has that much control and that i do agree with..but living here i dont think it will change..after leaving maybe it will be easier to separate things out and have more space and boundaries ..long term time away..something..but chatted last night with a couple ppl online and they got me really distracted onto other things..and it was good because then i had to think about other stuff to keep up with the convo..and gradually the issues with mommy werent as overwhelming.. going back to lay down for a little bit before talking myself into getting ready to leave