things arent going to change

i will be on my best behavior from now on until i have moved. Mommy 'talked' to me today, and talked, and talked, and talked. Everything that i need to work on, that I need to be more open and talk to her. That she is concerned and scared about the scars, and on and on and on. She says that she doesnt care what I do but then still turns around and tells me what I need to do. I had to call around about the insurance for my car..and get all that straightened out..and I was feeling so excited and proud of myself for getting my insurance lower for next month once i catch up with this months lagging bill of course..and I tell her about it in my new effort to be as good as i can be..and yeah she told me i should be excited..and in the same breath told me that i needed to keep looking for something better..i would rather stay with my current insurance now..i would..but still how i handled it isnt good enough to just be..no i still have to work on it..i still have to make it better some how...she has been asking more than once if I am gay or not, which I still dont think is any of her business but after the remarks over the weekend about setting me up with one of my sisters husbands friends I am just not even going there with her..i dont care how open she thinks i need to be with her..and i really dont think im gonna tell her any more than i do now..but i guess i will have to make some sort of effort in it all to keep things cool until moving.